these days, i've been just going with whatever happens in my life. it's a good feeling. to just relax in His presence and watch any worries or anxieties slip off my fingers. now i sleep whenever i please, and i pick up my paintbrush whenever i please. no designated schedules, no to do lists. and you know what's amazing? everything seems to fall in the right places. somehow my homework finishes itself and i don't get the usual daily nosebleeds. the less i try, the more i get done. haha, it's great. it feels like i'm living a carefree yet passionate life.

i kinda like it when my room is messy, and when my desk's all cluttered. it reflects who i am perfectly, and i remember one of my art teachers said once "when someone tells you to clean your desk, tell them it's not messy, it's an organized mess," meaning as long as i know where everything is, what's the point of cleaning? organized mess. i like that. it's much more interesting than a clean, spotless person.