these days, i've been just going with whatever happens in my life. it's a good feeling. to just relax in His presence and watch any worries or anxieties slip off my fingers. now i sleep whenever i please, and i pick up my paintbrush whenever i please. no designated schedules, no to do lists. and you know what's amazing? everything seems to fall in the right places. somehow my homework finishes itself and i don't get the usual daily nosebleeds. the less i try, the more i get done. haha, it's great. it feels like i'm living a carefree yet passionate life.

i kinda like it when my room is messy, and when my desk's all cluttered. it reflects who i am perfectly, and i remember one of my art teachers said once "when someone tells you to clean your desk, tell them it's not messy, it's an organized mess," meaning as long as i know where everything is, what's the point of cleaning? organized mess. i like that. it's much more interesting than a clean, spotless person.

a completely random post

i'm gonna write on this same topic in four years and see if anything changed :)

someone who has a brilliant and refreshing outlook on life. someone who understands the way i think, someone who looks at the world in retrospect. someone who is completely okay with my need for space and understands that i don't want to be with him 24/7. someone who sings with me during my random singing sessions, someone to tell all my aspirations, dreams, and stories to. someone who encourages me in my walk with God, someone who is intellectual and lovely. someone who loves his family, someone who will be more of a friend than a lover. someone whose convictions are as strong as mine, someone who will inspire me everyday. someone who doesn't have any expectations of me, someone who won't try to mold me into someone he wants me to be. someone who i can give to without expecting anything back in return. someone who won't try to make himself the first priority in my life. someone who doesn't throw the word "love" around and use it based only on his emotions. someone who is blunt and tells me i'm making a fool of myself when i actually am. someone who will argue with me. someone who is passionate about the causes that i am passionate about. someone who i can learn from everyday... most importantly, someone who will always love God more than he loves me.

that's my ideal significant other :) what's yours?